A new obsession!

Hey, who doesn't need something to keep them entertained while they're in between productive stages of TTC? I know I do! Biihold my newest obsession, Wiiwatching: outtastock.com shows that currently the only big online retailer with a Wii to take my mind off of things and get my body in tip-top shape is W*lmart, selling a ridiculous bundle for $300 more than a base unit.

I hope to someday be the first woman to blog about how a Wii helped her get ready for childbirth.

Optimism, thy name was cervical mucus

Blah. Day 17 of my cycle, day 4 of egg-white cervical mucus, and NO spiked temps. No sign that my body has actually done the deed. I did some googling and found that ovulation spotting can mean you're OVULATING, but the excitement that possibility generated was dashed when I took my temp this AM and found no change at all.

I'm still new to the charting, still new to figuring out my cycle (or lack), so really who knows, but I really was looking forward to it being easier than I've worried it would be.

Day six of waiting

The end of day six of not much to do but wait. The doc said that Metformin works for me it will regulate my cycle. We'll know, roughly, based on when I get my period. If it's within appx. 30 days we'll consider me good to go--no Clomid for attempt #1. I'm on day 14 of my cycle, so pretty much nothing to do except wait for the next couple of weeks.

Except for this: on the way home from work I noticed that my cervical mucus was suddenly appearing in abundance. I came home and confirmed this--egg white. All of a sudden, too. And on day 14. This is so rare for me. Fertility Friend is claiming I am at my most fertile and about to ovulate. I suppose now the next thing to do is to see if my temp jumps up over the next couple of days.

Crossing my fingers. I'd so much prefer to feel like we should enter into our first attempts without Clomid.

Feeling quiet

On the heels of an HSG today, I'm feeling quiet. It could be the Aleve. More likely the fact that it hurt like hell and I'm tired from it. And hurtness and tiredness make me weirdly sad. Not about anything in particular, just that sorta ache-y sad.

The good side of this is that the HSG showed good stuff--my tubes are totally open. My cervix, on the other hand, is weirdly shaped. The doctor couldn't keep the catheter in, and she was muttering something about it. I didn't catch the details, and will have to remember to ask later. When I had my wisdom teeth pulled it turned out that I had a sort of extra tooth--one of my wisdom teeth was really two teeth fused together. I think I still have the tooth somewhere. Ever since then I've liked collecting stories of my own medical anomalies.

Interestingly, after the HSG, immediately after, I got the most intense adrenaline rush. It was kinda amazing. Faded too fast, though, and then the weird sadness kicked in.

Off to bed for now. Dose #2 of the Aleve is kicking in and I need sleep.

First born

My first thought upon seeing the new Apple iPhone today was "if I had a first-born, I'd offer it up in exchange." Good thing we haven't gotten that far along yet...

Excuse me while I go watch the Keynote...

Bleccccchhhhh

I've read it's important to take prenatal vitamins for three months prior to trying to conceive (and then to let up on them for I forget how long if conception doesn't occur and then start them again and so on). I went and got a bottle--90 one pill a day, a three month supply. Came home, opened it up, saw they were too big for me to swallow.

I'm not good with horse pills. A long bout of undiagnosed and subsequently untreated acid reflux that stemmed from a hernia (still around but mellowed with age) has made it so that I freak out whenever I get near a big pill. I'm certain every time that it's going to get stuck in my esophagus on the way down.

I did some googling and learned that one of my options, provided they're not timed-release vitamins, is to crush them and mix 'em in with something else. So I've been doing this now for three long suffering nights.

They're disgusting. I've been mixing them with peanut butter. Blech. Peanut butter covers up the taste of anything but this. I don't know what else to try. If I were a dog, I'd give it to me in some cheese or a hot dog. But I'm not a dog and I think that if I were a dog I'd spit this crap right out.

I'm a loss here, but at the same time I feel a responsibility to the great unknown to take the damn vitamins.

Other obsessions of mine

As much as large portions of my brain seem to have been sucked up by trying to understand what my body is doing and where it wants to go, I do have other things competing for my limited attention span. Tuesday is the Macworld Expo.

Word is that the keynote will be on a delayed broadcast. I'm going to have to decide on Tuesday morning whether to follow along with someone blogging live at lunch, or to instead do a Total Media Shutout for a few hours till I have some time to sit back and watch the broadcast.

The thing I'm most excited about is more news of Leopard. As much as I'd love to, my money will be too tied up in sperm futures to go for an iPhone or an iTV. And I've learned my lesson with the iPod anyway, seeing as how they always release iPods that are one better seconds after I've bought mine--early iPhone adopters are going to be so bummed when theirs are old and dull three weeks later. It's one thing to have three iPods lying around the house. How many cell phones can you really claim to need? And as for the iTV, I want I want I want, but I want a Nintendo Wii more, and until the TiVo gives out for good and we get to replace the aging TV with a fancy flat panel, the iTV is really just kinda not up my alley right now.

So Leopard it is. New OS means new subtleties to the joy of using my computer. And I'll save up, in the meantime, for the Wii.